Chase the Sun: Explained

behind the lyrics

Where do you go when it grows cold?
Where do you go when it grows cold?

‘Cause I watch you chase the sun 
Wishing I was the one 
My roots fight for your love 
But you only look above

Where do you go when it grows cold?
Where do you go when it grows cold?

‘Cause I put my all into you 
But you still let me down 
Who’s gonna stick around?
While you’re weighing them down 

When will you get over the past?
I wish you didn’t shatter as easy as glass 
‘Cause I worry for you 
How long will this last?

Where do you go when it grows cold?

‘Cause I watch you chase the sun 
Wishing I was the one 
My roots fight for your love 
But you only look above

Sometimes it feels like a curse being stuck with you 
‘Cause your skies are always dark blue 
I’m supposed to be celebrating my youth 
But I’m too busy trying to fix you

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Photo shot by Marelyn Bravo

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Chase the Sun was inspired by the desired connection you would like to have with someone who is long gone. A dramatic romance between man vs. self.

I believe the coldest of seasons are the ones where you have lost yourself despite your greatest of efforts to be found. Despite the greatest of efforts to be whole once more. The better half of you is off chasing the sun, while your temperatures lower and lower.

You rise in the morning ready to seize the day, but your heart still aches. A force stronger than gravity pulls you mentally straight to the ground while your confidence, self-love, and internal shine are nowhere to be found.

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I put my all into you, but you still let me down

Who’s gonna stick around, while you’re weighing them down?

Your body, mind, and soul won’t heal after one gym session or two, a week of meditation, a spiritual retreat, or after accomplishing several goals. Physical and mental health must be maintained throughout your whole life. These lines came from feeling like there was no use in striving to improve upon my mental state if I was still going to have negative thoughts about myself even after deep moments of self reflection and care.

How many miles do I have to walk, how many books do I have to read, how many tears do I have to cry before all of my troubles disappear? Why am I not enough for me?

These lyrics also sprouted from feeling too heavy to those that surround me. Who truly wants to stay around someone who has low or negative energy?

When will you, get over the past? I wish you didn’t shatter as easy as glass

‘Cause I worry for you, how long will this last?

For several years after I left my parent’s house, it seemed as if I was stuck in a tiresome loop of misery. I wanted to erase certain moments in my life that had caused me great sadness. I held onto every word and action against me in my mind. I only let myself down with every expectation I placed upon my parents. To change the past and other people would change my entire world, is what I thought to myself.

I am an emotional person and when you’re unsure of how to control everything you feel, a difficult situation can easily send you into a spiral.

I would worry about myself, because how many heights can you actually reach if you’re hyper focused on the negatives?

Sometimes it feels like a curse being stuck with you, ‘cause your skies are always dark blue

I’m supposed to be celebrating my youth, but I’m too busy trying to fix you

I believe the most difficult person to befriend is yourself. Self improvement is a must, but there has to be a point where you accept who you are. I know I have wasted healthy and youthful moments by being overly fixated on my imperfections.

Chase the Sun is a part of my story that I wanted to share with you all. I hope we all find ourselves in a place of self acceptance and contentment.

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Last December was my first time in a studio. I was super nervous and excited to create something new to call my own. After hours of serving to save up for studio time, practicing vocals, writing, and navigating through challenging sessions, my first single was born.

It was also last December when I first recorded this clip in my car. I was figuring out what Chase the Sun was and what it wanted to be. I invited Marelyn to hear the lyrics I had just came up with and that is how she snapped this dashing photo of me. :) My first recording was quite a journey and there will be more to come. Let me know what you think of the song & this post. I would love to hear your feedback 💝